There are so many things I want to blog about....so many things I want to express....so many cool projects that I got to accomplish while I was away from the computer. Unfortunately, at this time the one thing that weighs heavy on my mind and in my heart is the passing of my mother.
In the early morning hours of January 22, 2009, my mother, Aida Pena, passed away at home surrounded by her family after a long and hard fought battle with cancer.
I am still processing the whole experience, so I don't have the words to say...the tears to cry...but my heart is still beating.
I can't begin to explain what I saw, what I felt, how she passed, how we all pulled together, how I'm certain there were angels administering to us in the hours leading up to and following her death. How angels are still here...lifting, helping, calming, holding, comforting, reminding us that she is in a far better place free from pain and anguish.
Tonight there is peace in my heart but also a longing to have her back for just a minute to talk to, to tell her how much she was loved and the effect that she had on people...she didn't even really know.
After the funeral this morning (where I nearly fainted after singing a song as a tribute to my mother) I felt full of the Savior's love for us. I know she heard my song...I know she was there lifting me up and helping me continue...I know...
Today my heart is damaged, broken, beating, full, in his hands...but my heart will go on...soon enough...
"As the father hath loved me, so have I loved you; continue ye in my love." John 15:9
20 comments:
I can't imagine how hard it must be to lose your mother, and I am sorry for your loss. May God continue to give you peace in this difficult time.
Alida I've missed you so much this last week and I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. I've thought about you often, wondering how your week was going, wondering what great things you were getting done while away from the computer. I'm so sorry that you've been suffering and hurting at this time. You are an amazing woman and a great example to me. You're such a great mom, always trying to be better, so creative and so full of life. I'm sure your mother was and still is proud of all you do. I know she will be watching over you. I will keep your family in my prayers. Much love from Minnesota!
Becca
Alida I am so sorry! Our family is also going through some cancer struggles, as we are about to lose 2 family members to it (one who is only 38 and has 2 young children). I can't imagine how hard this has been for you. I will keep your family in my prayers!
What a beautiful expression of your grief, peace, agony, faith, etc. You're an amazing person!
Alida, All my love is with you!! i wish we weren't so far way from each other. I am sending you the biggest hug you have ever had in your whole life and know that you and your family are in our prayers. I miss you so much.
oh Alida I'm so so sorry about your mother. i can't even imaging what your feeling. please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers at this time and that I hope you will continue to feel the peace and comfort the spirit has brought you.
Alida, I am really sorry to hear about your mom this way, but I'm happy for her to be free of pain and with her Father in Heaven. I've been a little out of blogging lately, but hopefully I'll start making a come back. Besides the funeral I hope all is well with you and your family.
Alida I am sorry to hear about the passing of your mother. Your words brought tears to my eyes. Such a difficult thing to go through. Isn't the gospel wonderful? That we know and can feel peace. I appreciate your testimony and strength. You are in my prayers.
Oh Alida, I am so very sorry to hear about your mother. I can't imagine what you're going through. I'm glad to hear how much you've been comforted through this time. You will be in our thoughts and prayers.
Alida, my thoughts and prayers go out to your family. I'm so sorry you had to lose your mother at such a young age. I'm sure it is not an easy thing. Just know, she is definitely there, guarding you and your family and helping you when you are down and holding you when you are alone and in need. It's a wonderful thing to know who you're guardian angel is and who's got your back.
My thoughts and prayers go out to you guys. I am really sorry for the hurt that must have come from her passing, but you have the peace of knowing that she is in a better place. I love you!
I am very sad to hear of the loss your family has suffered. It is never easy to lose a loved one. We lost my husbands father to cancer 2 years ago and it was not an easy thing. Your family is in my thoughts and prayers.
I have tears in my eyes as I type this comment. I am so sorry about the loss of your mother. I am so glad she was able to be with you at Christmas. I love that picture of you and her that you posted on you blog in your Christmas post. Your strength and testimony are an example to me. I pray that you will to continue to feel peace and comfort at this time.
When my husband called to tell me, I wanted to write right away and tell you that our prayers are with you and your family, but I just wasn't sure of what to say.
We look forward to maybe seeing you this week, but are saddened by the circumstances which may bring you here.
Love ya
Darci and Family
I am so sorry to hear about your mother--my heart goes out to yours. Know that there are so many of us reading about your hurt. Let your heart hurt and grieve, and you will feel the love.
Take care and my thoughts are with you.
Our prayers are with you and your family. Blessing of strength and understand.
I admire your ability to sing at the funeral. You are a strong person (with a beautiful voice). I'm sure your mom loved it. You'll be in our thoughts and prayers.
Hey Alida, I know I left a comment already but I've been thinking about you a ton. I'm so sorry. Just wanted you to know you are still in our thoughts and prayers.
You don't know me. I know Becca Rigss and was blog surfing when I came across your post. I just wanted to tell you how sorry I am about your mother. I lost my mom to cancer Nov. 2006 and I still miss her everyday. It's so hard for a daughter to lose her mother. I hope you are finding some comfort and peace.
I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I am even more sad that I read it on your blog a week later and did nothing as your visiting teacher! Forgive me - I'm coming over when you get back. I'm praying for you and your family!
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