Tuesday Messages...

Jeremiah,
Some days I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel.
Some days I feel like the world is caving in on me.
Some days I just wish for our normal life back....
Some days I just want to cry and cry and cry and cry.
Thanks for being there to just listen to me.
Some days that's all I need.
Love,
Ali
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Ashy,
Allstar Cheer tryouts were Saturday. You've been working so hard for over a month to land that back handspring. I know how nervous you were and finally on Friday night you landed it. Then you landed it again. Then you landed a round off back handspring. Then you landed two front walk-overs, round off, back handspring. Then double toe touch back handspring! Oh.my.goodness. you were on fire! At tryouts you suddenly walked over to me and said, "Mom, I think I'm going to change my standing pass to a back handspring, round off, back handspring." I'll admit I kinda freaked. You hadn't even tried it before and you just learned your back handspring the night before and it was like 5 minutes BEFORE tryouts. So I asked you to show me and you walked over to the mat, head held high, and you NAILED it!! Everyone was like WOW! I was like WOW! You gave me a sassy little look and I had to giggle. I love your confidence! Good Job on making the Junior Level 2 team, I know it's what you really, really, really wanted.
Love,
Madre
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Brinton,
Holy moly Bubba! You are so awesome. Last week was a good week for you. We had the chance to meet with your teachers and they all spoke so highly of you. Your test scores were in the 99th percentile for your age and grade. The OT specialist said she administered a test where you were shown a picture and had to draw it. You drew every single one and with perfect detail. She said in all her years of administering the test she had never had a student complete every drawing! Way to go! They said you were polite, articulate, and very intelligent. Articulate? I LOVE that word for you. There were times when you were little when I didn't ever think that I would hear you speak and now people are telling me how articulate you are! It makes me beam with pride. I truly love you my sweet son.
Truly, Madly, Deeply. As long as I'm living (and even on to infinity).
Love,
Mom
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Elisey,
I think your middle name should've been Sparkle, cause that's what you do.. .you sparkle! Everywhere you go, you sparkle. When you are really excited about something you get this adorable twinkley sparkle in your eye and you jump up and down with joy. Whenever you hear or say something funny you giggle and if sounds could sparkle it would be the shiniest giggle in America...maybe even the world! Last week was the 2nd/3rd grade musical. You were one of the main speakers and you lit up the stage. When you sang the songs and did the motions you took my breathe away. You were the shiniest little girl up there. A little ray of sunshine. You light up my life and color my world.
I love you cuppy cake
Mommy
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Julianna,
Today was Kindergarten Roundup. *sigh*
I'm not ready to let you go yet....good thing I have a couple of months to get used to the idea. You had an eye exam and a hearing exam. You looked like such a big girl sitting in the chair raising your hand each time you heard the Beeeeeeeeppppp. They tested you on letters. You knew every single one, except for lower case "m." They tested you on single digit and double digit numbers. You were awesome with the single digit, and did better than I thought you would on double digit. They tested you on shapes...you knew all your shapes including cube, cylinder, and octagon! That surprised me. They tested you on concepts...big, small, short, tall, wide, similar, alike, exactly, the same, etc. You got everyone right. I'm so proud of you smart girl. Don't grow up to quick though.... you're still my baby girl.
Love,
Mommy
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Liam,
Wow. You are such a 2 year old boy. Last weekend was general conference. We usually are able to watch it on television but it's not carried on TV here in Pittsburg. We could watch it on the Internet but we tried that for the Saturday sessions and the screen is so small that 8 people crowded around it was just too uncomfortable....so....Sunday we opted to go over to the chapel and watch it there with everyone else. You did a really good job of playing as quietly as a 2 year old boy in church can. You looked at books, played bingo (ate jelly beans), and colored. 2 hours is a long, long time for a little boy to be quiet. When you became restless I took you on a little walk around the church building. It was so windy that we quickly came back inside. As I wrestled with your little body to keep you from getting down and running away I caught a glimpse of your big, beautiful brown eyes. For a quick second I was immersed in your eyes and it was if I could see that little spirit of yours. I had a glimpse of the man you are to become. I saw you as a missionary, as a husband, as a father. It was so amazing. I knelt down and stared into those big brown eyes again and said, "I love you" With those three words it's as if all the restlessness just melted away and you hugged me so tight. I don't think I'll ever forget that moment.
I love you.
Mommy
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Aidan,
My sweet little Aidan. You're so close to crawling. Hip, hip, hooray! You do this half inchworm, half army, half up on your hands and knees, half drag yourself, kind of motion that looks A LOT like crawling but just isn't quite right yet. You can get across a room pretty quickly now and you love to terrorize my neatly folded laundry. Sadly, you are on your 3rd ear infection in 3 months, add to that you are about to cut your first tooth. The last few nights have been pretty miserable. It's likely you'll get tubes in your ears and hopefully that tooth will push through soon.
I love you little Aidan Bug.
Mommy